TODAY!

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Hey guys it’s me again! 

Today I finally walked away.
Today I decided that loving without walls wasn’t such a good idea.
Today I told him that I couldn’t stand not being his everything.
And today he told me that he was going to miss me.
I had hoped that today would be the day,
No! Not that day in your head but rather the day I’d say
 “I’m leaving cos I’m tired of second guessing everyday“ 
and he’d say
 “stay with me, cos you’re all I need”.
But that wasn’t today!


It was like all the other 13 times I had tried to leave and he’d say 
“I’d miss you”
Although today he said
 “when I figure it all out I’ll come looking for you“
Does that mean that there’s hope today? 
Or was it just something he said to keep me from leaving?
I guess I’d find out. 
Today is the day that I hope my feet stays on the ground.
Today is the day that regardless of how emotional this is for me I’m not going back.
Today is the day I loose the one that means the most to me.
And today is the day I accept that loss !
Today I move on, to the better things that life has to offer.
Today I turn back no more, less I become a pillar of salt.
Today I say no to toxicity, negativity, verbal abuse, suppression and derogatory comments.
Today I break free from the bondage of being ludicrous in love that drained my soul of it’s worth.
Today I break free and soar 

Today....... 
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