Unspoken love

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The way her hair swayed in synchrony with her waist as she danced to the ear deafening songs being played at the party caused my heart to beat with so much irregularity that I was scared I would die. But I couldn't control my heart any more because the more I watched and saw that smile , the more I wanted to pause time and stay in that moment forever. Her subtle moves and the joyful demeanor she had on the dance floor made me fall in love all over again..... Oh my Abigail! I have loved her for as long as I can remember but I have never been able to tell her how I feel; I have shown it in diverse ways but saying it hasn't been the easiest thing because am worried she would not even understand the way I feel about her, it might confuse her so much and I did not want that. She was the apple of my eye, the one I saw first before any other, she was also the best thing that happened to me,and my love for her is much deeper than a tunnel that has got light at the end of it . I cherish her, my first born child given to me by God, a blessing to me to usher me into fatherhood - a rare privilege. Oh my Abby if only I could tell you how much you mean to me with words rather than with my actions. Maybe someday but for now am content with watching you celebrate your 4th birthday. I hope that as you get older I would find the words to express my feelings to you baby girl. I love you forever  because with you, it's solitude.
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